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08 February 2013 @ 12:24 pm
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Name: Vanja
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[ ] Male
[ ] Female
[x] Best Fit (don't ask for both)

Describe your personality:
My personality can seem contradictory or random to others, as I can act quite differently depending on the situation and who I'm around. I'm cynical, but I can be passionate about the causes I care about and still get disappointed when people seem to be going backwards. I enjoy helping friends, but I can't stand most people. I'm nihilistic objectively, but I do care about things on a more personal level. I've been called easy-going + intense, reckless + planned, among other things. Often, one part of these will appear much more prominent than the other part, but then it'll eventually swing back and the other half will appear more prominent to the same degree. In other words, these traits can appear to swing in extremes depending on who I'm around.

I can be too outspoken, argumentative, and blunt. While I can plan things out usually... well, if they're important actions, at least, I need better control over my mouth. I have a tendency to open it no matter who it is-- I've gotten into arguments with teachers, managers, etc... I do have a filter over it to an extent, but this has created problems in the past.

You could call me "self-made," for lack of a better term. Much of what I know, I had to learn on my own. I've had to dig myself out of an area that seemed to have a "Abandon hope, all ye born here... unless you're one of the few sons/daughters of factory owners!" motto, and it has severely impacted my overall mentality and perspectives.

For personality types: INTP/J-- I'm always strongly INT, but the J/P is near the middle. (I get J more, but the P descriptions normally do fit better, as I'm normally more easy-going.) 5 - "The Investigator", and most of that brief description for 5 (" Independent, innovative, and inventive, they can also become preoccupied with their thoughts and imaginary constructs. They become detached, yet high-strung and intense. They typically have problems with eccentricity, nihilism, and isolation") fits very well.. Chaotic Neutral, and while my morality is mixed and I don't believe in good and evil, I'm very far into that Chaotic spectrum. To briefly summarize all that: Often stuck in my own head. Determined. Prone towards disregarding rules. Willing to go out of the way for a close. Can be conniving and trickster-y. "Hard to get to know." Bored by routine and tradition. Adaptable. Challenges ideas. Prone towards thinking I'm right note to self: don't be such an ass.

Along those same lines, I'm a Scorpio, and I do tend to get either it (see: intensity, secrecy, and I do get jealous easily-- which is one of my least favorite traits) or Aquarius (progressive-thinking / possibly "misanthropic" when their views aren't met, can be alone despite not acting unfriendly by default, seen as strange by others, and "perverse"... well, does having a filthy sense of humor count?) +There's this popular quiz used on these, which does fit very well because I am secretly a hyena, particularly the part I highlighted.

Positive Traits: Analytical, independent, calm-minded (read: despite anything else, I at least think rationally), clever, open-minded, curious, humorous... but that can also be a negative *points below*

Negative Traits: Hopelessly self-critical, secretive (in the sense that I don't like to talk about my personal life - though I will talk about other things easily enough - and I tend to do/plan things without telling others), devious, obstinate, overly-curious, procrastinates too much, sarcastic/mocking/mixed with a dark sense of humor in general, rather bitter... at least if you catch me on a bad day.

Hobbies and interests:
Beyond the love of video games that I'm sure no one saw coming I enjoy reading, mountain biking, hiking, and music (both playing and listening.) Ah, and tea and coffee! Never... enough... coffee...

Dislikes: More than anything? Bigots, gender generalizations, people who complain but don't do anything to change whatever they're whining about, and the feeling of failure. Other dislikes include people who keep me up until 4 in the morning when I have to get up at 7, anything with the words "Hallmark" or "Lifetime" attached to it, and privileged people who think they're the most amazing people in the universe when they've never had to do anything for themselves in their lives.

How are you described by others?: Depends a lot on who you ask. I've been called nice and helpful, but also a horrible demon, hah. Most people - at least after they know me - say something along the lines of "intelligent, snarky, and abrasive."

+ When I did Johari/Nohari windows recently the most commonly picked traits were independent, self-assertive, witty, logical, intelligent, trustworthy, cynical, chaotic, callous, blasé, overdramatic, and hostile.

*Though I was told people wanted adjectives which weren't there, like that blasé meant that I get bored easily, and overdramatic because of the self-criticalness causing me to think the world is ending if anything happens that could be interpreted as me not doing as well as I could... but there are better words that weren't options for all that.
Are you more...
Introverted or extroverted? Here's a guess: It starts with that letter up there... *points up to the personality description* I can actually come off as extroverted sometimes, but it doesn't normally last.
Optimistic, pessimistic, idealistic, or realistic? I have ideals, but I'm aware of how realistic they really are.
A leader or a follower? A background leader. I'm too opinionated and outspoken to be a complete follower, but I prefer to advise rather than outright lead. I will take up a leader position if no one else is willing to and/or the only people who want to are incompetent, though.
Cynical or trusting? Cynical.
Mature or childish? This is difficult for me to answer! I'm so used to be called "mature" as I was when I was a kid, but I feel like I'm growing more immature than mature, haha. It's almost like to make up for those years, I've become more childish than I used to be. There are still times when I feel like the only mature person in the room, though, so idek.
Independent or dependent? Independent.
Cool or dorky? ... rofl. Care to take a guess? XD
Careful or carefree? I never know what to say to this. I can be impulsive in day-to-day activities, and I'm certainly not careful in those circumstances. Yet, I'm not really carefree since that implies being more laid-back, when... you don't want to see how much I obsess over grades. /sometimes-reckless perfectionist? D:
High, medium, or low energy? Depends on how much coffee and sleep I've gotten, so can vary significantly within that spectrum. By default (if assuming I've gotten enough sleep and haven't had coffee, so minimal other influences are acting on it)... slightly higher than average? I often have a tendency to act more enthusiastic than I really feel, however.
Confident or modest? Confident when I know I'm good at something, modest about everything else.

Quote? I never know what to say to this question, as I don't really bother to remember quotes. Let's just go with a random lyric of the moment that is important to me: "Tell me that you're torn asunder from how we fail to learn, and tell me as the earth goes under, Where’s your anger now?" (... and yes I finally changed it to a different random song, heh what's sad is that last.fm tells me I've listened to that song more than any other)
Movie? Lord of the Rings, Dr. Strangelove, PotC (minus the fourth one), V for Vendetta, Indiana Jones (minus the 2nd one), Lord of War, Zombieland...

I also not-so-secretly love some animated movies and spaghetti Westerns, which seems horribly random in comparison, but.
Type of music? Metal for the most part, and of many kinds. Progressive, death, doom, power, thrash... There are random other artists I like though, but my second favorite genre tends to be made of industrial and dark-electro stuff.
Color? Dark red or dustier shades of orange or yellow.
Animal? Cats. The cuddly house kind that won't bite my neck in half.
Game genre? RPGs primarily, particularly the ones that focus more on story, world building, or characters. I also end up playing a lot of strategy games (to differentiate from srpgs-- Civilization, Age of Empires, XCOM, etc) and some puzzle action games.

A large asteroid is going to hit the Earth in 24 hours and the world is going to end! How do you spend your last moments?
Hedonistic depravity, here I come!

+ I'd probably spend the time wondering why no one has tried one of the many plans they've come up with to prevent that specific situation. D: (People have invested a lot of research into preventing situations just like that one, you know!) Ah, and with people I care about, which I'm sure is the standard answer, but there you go. I'm also really resisting the urge to hum that R.E.M. song...

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change?
I'm going to change my answer here, after thinking about it more/not avoiding it just because I don't want to mention it: There's actually... quite a bit. Despite being calm on the surface (again, normally), I wish I actually were also calm underneath that.

What are some of your future goals?
To get that B.S. (Bachelors of Science... not bullshit, I'd rather bullshit be deposed of properly instead of given to me XD) + any further education I may need, see more of the world, move somewhere where I actually feel a sense of belonging (this may be impossible)... All in all, I just want to feel accomplished by the end of the day.

If you had to chose between saving those who are precious to you and all the inhabitants of an entire city, who would you save?
Honestly? I just don't know. Even if I do pick to not save the city, their remaining loved ones elsewhere would probably want to kill me and the people I did save out of revenge. In I choose to not save the few people I actually like, I just... couldn't...

How do you tend to act around those you don't know?
I'll either be quiet or a chatterbox. I can come off as aloof and, well, quiet, as I'll try to block people out if I don't care about what they're saying (i.e. talking about what happened on Jersey Shore last episode or gossiping and such). Sometimes I'll even space out entirely, as much as I hate that it happens... However, the moment someone brings up something I am interested in, I can end up being the most talkative (or at least 2nd most) in the room. This happens a lot in debates, as I have skewered social merits or something.

Though I have a tendency to try humor before anything else. Where it goes after that depends largely on whether they're laughing or looking at me like I'm some kind of strange person.

Are there any characters you absolutely do not want to be voted as? Pater, maybe? That would be a little...

Anything else you'd like to add?

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عقربgrimoire on February 10th, 2013 09:40 pm (UTC)
This is quite easy. While I can see a little of Sullivan here and there, I can't imagine you caring much about the same thing he did and go as far as he have. In fact, it's pretty much all at the beginning of your application. That leaves me with Zephyr who I think fits here quite a bit. Just like you, he can be a little contradictory. He is definitely cynical and nihilistic, but at the same time he does care about some things on more personal level. Perhaps not very strongly but it's there. Much like yourself, he is the type to help his friends and do a lot for them, yet he doesn't like people very much. While I wouldn't call him planned, he can be reckless, easy-going at times but intense, outspoken, argumentative, blunt. Definitely self-made and a chaotic neutral. I feel like I am just copying your application but your dislikes also fit him damn well, as well as being independent, clever, very self-critical (kind of the point of his character), secretive, being sarcastic and mocking. There is some traits that are completely different but then again, none of the characters really fit them, in my opinion.

Edited at 2013-02-10 09:40 pm (UTC)
breyzyyin on February 13th, 2013 03:18 am (UTC)
I don't know anything about this game, so my apologies if this is really off! O_O From how the characters are described here and the little bit I can gather from them on Google searches, I can see possible elements of Vashyron, Zephyr, Sullivan, and Rowen. None of them seem to be great fits however, but I think I'm leaning the most towards Zephyr as well. From how he's described, I'm getting the impression Zephyr is slightly more contradictory than some of the other options are...and he seems to be blunt from what I can tell. I'm getting the impression he's somewhat "self-made" as well...and he seems to fall more into the Chaotic side of the spectrum. Zephyr seems to be a really good fit for your Positive Traits ("Analytical, independent, calm-minded (read: despite anything else, I at least think rationally), clever, open-minded, curious, humorous")...and he at least seems to share some of your Negative Traits like being secretive, devious, obstinate, and sarcastic. He does seem to fit for most of your Dislikes too...and I could see others describing him the same way they'd describe you given what I've figured out about his character. I don't really know much about the character, but from what I can tell Zephyr seems to at least be a somewhat good fit for your "Are you more..." section answers...and I get the impression he wants to feel accomplished by the end of the day too. XD Sorry if that vote fails though, orz. O_O;
breyzyyin on February 20th, 2013 02:31 pm (UTC)
Hmm...this is tricky since I don't really know much about the game, so I apologize if my vote is off gah, it probably is...so I really apologize again for that!! After researching characters more...I could see a bit of Sullivan, Vashyron, Zephyr, and Rowen at times--but I think I'm leaning the most towards a vote for Zephyr. Based off of his character description, it does seem like he can be a bit contradictory at times...and he does also come across as blunt in certain interactions too from what I can gather. He also seems like he could be described as being "self-made" as well..and his experiences in that regard do seem to have an impact on how he views things too. And he could possibly fit into the Chaotic side of the alignment spectrum as well. I could see him perhaps fitting the INTP/J and possibly The Investigator personality types at times too given his character description. The overall combination of some of your positive and negative traits (secretive in terms of personal life, devious, obstinate, analytical, independent, calm-minded, clever, open-minded, curious, and humorous) seems like they could fit for him too, and I could imagine Zephyr perhaps being described by others in the cast in a similar fashion as well depending on who you asked to describe him.

Zephyr seems like he can come across as extroverted in certain situations, but it doesn't seem to last too often and he does seem to have an overall more introverted quality to his character at times. He seems to have ideals, but seems to know how realistic they actually are. He does seem to be too outspoken and opinionated to be described as a follower, though I think he'd prefer being more of a background leader too. He can be cynical, and from what I can gather he would most likely respond to the "mature or childish" question in a similar fashion as well. Zephyr seems more independent, could perhaps be described as a sometimes-reckless perfectionist, and seems to be confident when he knows he is good at something...but is probably more modest when it comes to other things. I could see him perhaps responding similarly when meeting someone for the first time, and perhaps wanting to just feel accomplished by the end of the day too. :)
Mynahsunflower_mynah on February 25th, 2013 03:38 pm (UTC)
Well. I know nothing about this game, but given the descriptions I think I've little choice but to go with Zephyr: witty one-liners, a tendency to be reserved and distant, but willing to go out of your way if you care for someone. He sounds like the kind of person who'd be too opinionated and outspoken to be a good follower too - plus I rather imagine the enemies he meets don't really appreciate the one-liners. XD
Amber: Mass Effect: I'll Ship it Forever :Dcassandrablue on February 27th, 2013 03:37 am (UTC)
You are most like Zephyr!

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